Closure

We had closure and of course D being D and me being me, it went the way we do things. Great then relapse. I shouldn't have expected anything more than D or me. I realize already now that maybe there is a chance we may never be together the way I hope we might and even though he won't admit it outright unless he's with me, he hopes too. He may come back. I might come back. Maybe one of us won't or neither will. The future is unwritten and all answers will come with time. I wonder if he will miss me the way I miss him right now, this very moment. I wonder if he will discover what it is to love and be loved in return, the way I love him right now. It hurts to think I may never know but who knows.

The future is so unpredictable.

And we're subject to change. He keeps saying "you believe what you want to believe" and it's ironic, because I think he's talking to himself. Not me.