Bliss then cold

I couldn't be happier. My family and boyfriend are getting along. My friends may not hate me so much after all.

And yet I screw it up.

Yesterday I said a bunch of awfully short sighted and idiotic things to him because I was feeling all messed up. I hadn't slept well and probably PMSing. He said not to worry about it. And took it well. But still I feel like an idiot. He calls me that.

It's not untrue. I am an idiot.