I risk everything

I realize that when you enter a relationship or relationships. You seem to get so much more. And yet at the same time...You lose it all. Friends seem so distant. They don't want to be with you anymore. I don't know what to do because I don't want to lose either. It was my nightmare and now I feel like it is my reality. I don't know what to do about those friends anymore. They are all going their own ways and maybe it is what is supposed to happen, but all those years together for nothing?

Maybe this is just what happens. I don't know what to say.